22.5.12

Enjoy People | Personal Thank You + Catch-Up

i'll be eighty-seven; you'll be eighty-nine
i'll still look at you like the stars that shine
taylor swift - mary's song  
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My friends.  Thank you.  The six posts of "our story" come with the most supportive as well as scathing words from those reading along.  These Oh My My My posts are easily my most read and viewed posts this year (side from our phenomenal engagement story.)  Turns out y'all like Caleb too! Thank you for reading, thank you for saying something when you read, thank you for encouraging me on in writing.

It might seem silly, but this story is by far the hardest thing I've ever blogged.  It's hard because I couldn't possibly put in words what is in my heart.  It's hard because this is my life - I can feel vulnerable.  It's fairly easy to repeat to you a story I heard about someone else at an engagement shoot, but putting my life "out there" is an entirely different animal.  It's hard because it's Caleb's life.  It's hard because I regret decisions I made during this story.  It's hard because I can't even tell the whole story.  It's hard because you, the readers, will never understand how much God did in us and with us.  Though I am quite looking forward to telling you about our happiest and hardest and then happiest days together, you'll never know exactly what happened.  It's hard because some readers will only think of us as a cutesy-coo little couple and nothing deeper, while others will continue to make assumptions and despise us.  It's hard because I've been somewhat-secretly dreaming of writing a book someday.  Telling this story is a little bit of a trial run to see if my writing is as welcomed as my photography.  It's hard because I make lots of typos.  And each post takes me hours to write.  It's hard because when I push "publish" and let my heart and self out to be seen and scrutinized, I might be misunderstood.  It's hard because I am critical of my writing abilities. It's hard because, as Charlie Brown says,  "You not only can't explain love, actually, you can't even talk about it." I love him so.  I really do.

And truthfully, if the first few posts had had a "blah" response - maybe no one hated the story, but maybe it was "eh, whatever" - I don't think I would have kept blogging it. (I'd like to think I would have kept on writing just for myself and my man, though!) Please know, more than any other time in my entire career, your support and kindness (and occasional mean-ness!) has kept this writing going.  

I was looking for a reaction - good or bad! I don't think our story is boring, but if you all did?  Well, no body likes a boring story!  So thank you: please keep telling me what you think... and you really can be honest.  You don't have to like it!  But if you do, feel free steal or pin that above picture and link back to the Oh My My My series.  I absolutely love when I come across new love stories online - and if any of you are inspired to right yours out, please tell me!  The Enjoy Project is really a desire deep in me to share and connect with people. I want you to know the real me.  I want to know the real you's.  And the real you's have blessed and encouraged me tremendously.  Thank you!

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In other news!  Life has been rich.  If you follow along on instagram, twitter or Facebook, you saw that I was able to be a little bridesmaiden last week!  I'm in awe of how different it is to be in a wedding rather than to shoot a wedding.  Congratulations Stephen and Abbie!



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The wedding was near the Philadelphia area and Caleb had a job starting Monday in New York.  The plan was for me to drive back to Maryland on Sunday, and he'd depart at the same time for Syracuse.  But when the time came, I just couldn't leave him.  So I went with him!  The work was going to take at least 10 days and the little corn-cob was awfully sick.  I only had one pair of pajama's and a few skirts (rehearsal dinner options, of course) and a bridesmaids dress!  But it was pure bliss to scrape wallpaper and just be near my favorite person.  And be called "shmoopy" (from Seinfeld? Anyone?) by the rest of the crew ;)
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I couldn't stay long though.  I left Wednesday morning to make it home in time for a bachelorette weekend starting Thursday!  The second wedding I'll be in this year is for my little Julie and her smart yet daffy James. The bridesmaids whisked Jules away for a weekend of eating, dressing-up, the boardwalk, dancing, movies, sleeping-in and mockery.  It was the best.
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Now I'm home.  Mr. McMuffin gets home from New York today.  We might go to a baseball game.  We might die from happiness.  We might do both.  Oh my my my.

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37 comments:

  1. you're welcome.
    you inspire me. as always.
    I've been working on our story for weeks. writing the introduction. dreaming the words of all the crazy parts. wrestling with the difficult parts and revelling in the good parts.
    mostly, i'm trying to enjoy writing again. like I used to. and to find the voice that i had before I got distracted by pretty pictures. ;)

    keep writing, Kristen. I <3 Oh My My My. :)

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  2. OH dear heart. I'm so thankful that you've continued to write this marvelous story down! It's such a testimony to God's awesomeness. It is also, in a way, a reminder from Him to all us singles that read your blog, that He creates the most wonderful things & stories & loves, although we can't always see it on this side. And each story is completely unique and hand-crafted by Him. What a beautiful, marvelous thought!!! It does my heart good to read your story. :) (oh, and it's my absolute FAVORITE love story now. More than Romeo & Juliet and The Pioneer Woman's story and even more than Alyssa Welch's. Which is quite remarkable;).

    To "ditto" Naomi Elle, "Keep writing, Kristen." :)

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  3. Naomi: You're just my favorite. Hurry up and post! I want to reeeeeaaaad!

    Amelia: You are so sweet. And again, that is just so encouraging. Both Ree and Alyssa are my main inspiration for writing this baby out! So, gah! I can't believe you just said that! My heart really does desire for single girls (and even guys!) to be excited and met, not discouraged and lonely, by the story. Thank you for your comment, friend!

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  4. My oh my oh my, keep writing Kristen Leigh. Your words encourage me. Your words inspire me. Your words make me want to grab hold of life fully and skip the running with it and start dancing with it. Your story is such a good, true, genuine, and completely beautiful one and I've been so crazy blessed/inspired/encouraged everytime you share it. I'll flip on twitter on my phone, see that you've posted the next part, and open up my laptop to soak in some more of your story. It's one of the most beautiful ones I've read. It's so hard to write out our story because it's personal. Vulnerability is oh so hard, but oh so beautiful -- which is seen completely in all your writing. Love it, love you, and love this series. :)

    Dittoing everyone above (say whaaat?! dittoing is actually a word. anyyyways...) keep writing, Kristen. Or I'll send Ellie over to beat some sense into you. ;) In complete seriousness though -- keep going. You're doing something beautiful here. :)

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  5. Sarah22.5.12

    DEAR KRISTEN!!! I love your writing. YESSSS, write a book - with lots of pictures.

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  6. YES. Go go go. I absolutely love reading about you both. I appreciate and admire you letting yourself out over this blog. It's a healthy stretch. If you love writing, if you love people, if you love stories (and of course you love Caleb) keep it comin. ;) I'm already stoked for the next part. <3

    (O. And I'm dittoing what Hannah said too. :))

    (by the way, I miss your laugh.)

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  7. love you kristen. this post was very well-written. and very honest.

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  8. i was just repeating your whole story (to date) to my husband last night.....he loved it, too! please don't stop writing - i am rarely a fan of "wordy" blog posts, but yours might be the one exception. and if you write a book, i'll buy it!

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  9. I love your story. Love love love it. It makes me wish I had written ours down "formally" instead of just in journals because ours happened over years! You are a wonderful writer; if you do not write a book, I hope you will include more writing in a blog, especially as you learn from married life!
    Some day I want to "meet" you and swap stories so I can hear it in your voice. I was so happy to meet your man and his bro the other week! Poor sick guy :-( Is he better?

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  10. I have absolutely loved reading this series. It's so encouraging to see God working in both your lives and families. Can't wait for the next installment :)

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  11. what Jamie said. and what Kati said.
    love you. and what God did for you, in you, and through you. and we love Caleb. can't imagine life without knowing him or you at this point.

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  12. Ah, your pictures remind me of when David and I were building our first house while we were engaged... the time we had working together were HEAVEN on earth! And then after we were married and could work together ALL of the time, oh the joy! It's so wonderful just to be together! Your pictures bring a smile!
    Don't let the nay-sayers get you down... Someone else's "love story" is one of the easiest things to pick on... God has a different story for each of us! No two people are brought together in the same way and God can work it all for His Glory! He is unfathomably good! You'll be so glad that you've taken the time to write out your story!!!
    We're praying for you two! :D

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  13. You are truly inspiring and wonderful. God bless you.

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  14. Oh, yeah.i love red bridesmaid dresses!(just had to get that out there :D)

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  15. I love the series oh so much. Seriously, it is so inspiring and beautiful and encouraging and amazing..it's just so great. Please keep writing! :)

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  16. Thank you for sharing your story, Kristen. I absolutely LOVE it. You are a very gifted writer, and I do welcome the writing as warmly as I do the photography!

    The relationship between you and Caleb is a beautiful thing. I admire how, while you are "cutesy-coo," you also have a deep and genuine love and respect for each other that is incredible. Please, please, PLEASE keep writing!

    (By the way, "dittoing" what Amelia said, your story is MY favorite love story, too!)

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  17. Shannon Borden22.5.12

    Oh Kristen! Your story is nothing close to boring! After hearing it from you in person your writings have really paint a picture of what was going on and what you were feeling! Your story is just absolutly incredible, I just know that God has some pretty amazing thingss planned for you guys! I have to admit that I check your blog daily to read the next part! I love you so much Cousin! See ya real soon!
    Lots of Love,
    Shannon

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  18. Can I just amen what everyone else has said? God's good, and I LOVE the gift He's given you to tell stories :) Keep telling them, please? Love y'all :)

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  19. Shannon Borden22.5.12

    Oh and P.S. If/When you do write a book I will definitely buy the first copy!

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  20. Cindy22.5.12

    I love it so much!! You're blog is now a desktop shortcut for me:}

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  21. Oh my goodness. Please don't stop!!! Absolutely love love loving this series! I am so encouraged with every post. I find a little bit of myself in each one. As you are bold and faithful to wear your heart on your sleeve with each post, I am blessed to read and see your story unfold.

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  22. PS reiterating what everyone else is saying, but if you write a book (which I'm hoping turns into a when you write a book soon) I will most definitely buy it. :)

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  23. I love reading your story! I'm a sucker for love stories and yours is great. :) I don't have a story of my own yet, but still enjoy hearing other people's stories. And you have a great gift for writing. Thanks for sharing!

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  24. I've been reading your blog for a while, and I'm enjoying your story!! I'm so happy for you and Caleb! Hope to meet you someday! :-)

    ~Brittney Southerland

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  25. Yes, I am among those who have enjoyed hearing the details of the story! Keep writing! Love you.

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  26. Jessica Snow23.5.12

    At this point, I don't believe my voice is required. Echoing everything said above. Please keep writing.

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  27. Thank you, Kristen. Thank you for sharing something so precious with all of us out here. You have such a unique voice, and it comes through in your sweet, sweet story and beautiful way of expressing it. I feel like I've gotten a glimpse into your world through these posts, and it's been a privilege I've sincerely enjoyed!

    So thank you. I almost feel like you're an older sister just a couple years ahead of me, recounting the way God wrote (and is writing!) a love story for you... and it makes me all hopeful and excited for the day I discover he's writing one for me too. You are a blessing!

    Much love from Canada!

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  28. Thank you so much, Kristen. I love reading your story; you are such an amazing writer. You are honest, and you have a unique voice, so please don't stop writing :)

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  29. Kristin, I've been reading your blog for years, but I'm not much of a commenter online. I couldn't, however, let this post go without letting you know what I thought. I've had my own hard times that God has helped me through, so seeing a lovely person like yourself put her story out there is really inspiring. I understand how awful the nasty comments feel, but rest assured that there are readers who love you to death. A lot of times bloggers will (not intentionally) make it seem like their life is perfect. Even without all the nitty-gritty personal details of your story, it is encouraging to see that my favorite photographer is "real".

    Honest to goodness, your love story gives me hope, and your writing is truly engaging (pun not intended, lol).

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  30. Thank you thank you thank you, everyone! The kindness is just too much to take.

    And Moira - again, that blesses me more than you could know! And just so you know: I think your art is BEAUTIFUL. I'm so glad you commented so I could see it! :D

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  31. Following your story from Germany... YES, keep sharing life's pieces, wonders and surprises with us!

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  32. I'm so flattered! (No really, I ran out of the room squealing and giddy). I think I suck, but I'm flattered that you liked looking at what I've posted so far. Here's to growing in art and love.

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  33. I am one of those blog lurkers who "never" comments...but I just wanted to echo how much I've enjoyed your posts as well! It's always encouraging to hear stories of God goodness sneaking up on us when we weren't looking, and God faithfulness through the awkward and "what do I do moments?" that come in life. And who doesn't love a good love story?

    Waiting, antsy for the next installment. ;-)

    Stephanie

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  34. Holy smokes, Syracuse is only 2 hours and 45 minutes away from me! Blogging NEVER hits this close to home here in upstate NY!! :)

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  35. "...and then Kendra came to visit"
    or whatever.
    no big deal

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  36. Anonymous CLCer25.5.12

    Hi Kristen -
    You don't know me, but someone linked to your blog a long time ago and I started reading and enjoying your writing and photography maybe two years ago. Your photos are beautiful, but it's your writing that really brings them to life.
    I feel like I know you, and I'm so excited for you. Thank you SO much for sharing your story with the world. My teen kids and I wait for each new "installment" and read with rapt attention. I can't wait to hear the rest. I'm so glad you didn't stop writing. I want to hear all the details. God is so good and it's great to hear a testimony of real life, God at work, two people following Him and finding their way to each other. Maybe I'll introduce myself sometime.

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  37. Wow, I can't believe I only just now read all your "Oh My My My" stories! Goodness, what took me so long haha! I have so very much enjoyed reading your's and Caleb's story! Your writing is so engaging and certainly personal, and I am very grateful that you have been willing to share all the sad, funny, and happy details of it. It not only made my heart melt, made me laugh and smile, but it also encouraged me tremendously that even though you went through a lot of pain and heartache and times of "giving up", God DID have the perfect man picked out for you. Your story encouraged me that God has someone perfect picked out for me as well who I am sure will be better than I can ever dream or imagine. Your story reminded me of this and gave me hope and a greater desire to be patient and wait for God's perfect timing! Thanks Kristen :)

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