29.10.08

Why?

Last week I did a complete "fall-clean," if you will, of my room. I had a lot that needed to be gone through - thrown away, filed away, put away. The things in my world needed homes. I always start big projects with a !bang! And get more done in the first hour then I do the rest of the day :)

I think it's because after the first initial go through you, or at least I, start to look at things. I found my basketball shoes from senior year and it was like an instant whirlpool (with the jets on) in my mind. Such good memories.

I found a lanyard from a conference I went to in February. I'm not quite sure how long I actually sat there remembering the times of worship, and powerful points in messages - but it wasn't brief.

I snapped back to my room, only to come across a yearbook. You just HAVE to look through that when you see it!

I found some dried rose petals that I cannot for the life of me remember where they came from! And I hate that! I usually remember everything and I have no idea why I have these petals! That just bugged me.

I found my favorite pink journal that I thought I had lost for good. It is filled to the brim with memories. I bought it right before my first trip to Mexico when I was 15 and, being the terrible journal-er I am, I used it until I was about 18. That journal is so me. Sermon notes, party lists, baby names, prayers, song lyrics, funny stories, dramatic "troubles", squiggles, random ideas, letters, food stains, schedules, inside jokes and almost anything else you can imagine. Well, finding that didn't lend itself helpful in finishing my room.

After a few more hours of determined, undeterred work I stumbled upon my 10th grade math notebook. Chills. Chills I tell you poured down my body. Disgusted, sickening chills. I loathed that notebook. I tried to buy a cute one to help make math lovelier. It was light, bright blue with a little pink underlay and a star cut-out in the corner. It didn't deserve to be a math notebook. It should have been a notebook for princess's to do calligraphy in.

I flipped through the pages and pages of lessons I had done. The re-do's I always had to do. The long confusing problems, that seem like a foreign language to me. Some days I really tried and gave it my all. That was good of me. The pages are neat and orderly and my handwriting was borderline cute. Those days were few and far between, and mostly in September.
The majority of my friends were either good at math or brilliant at math. By good, I mean they were taking Calculus before they had their permit. By brilliant, I mean they were correcting the SAT prep book (and that is a very true story). 
Even the ones who "struggled" didn't seem to struggle like I did. I think I spent 90% of my school-life doing math. All the other subjects combined took about 10% of the total time. (Hey now brown cow, was I just doing math in a blog post? Look at me!)

But seriously, math was so, so, so hard for me. I remember laying in bed some nights, dreading that I had to wake up in the morning and do math. The classes were hard, but leaving class was worse. Then you actually had work to do. Math made me cry. Math loomed. Math was like joy-sucking, fun-ruining leach in my life. I was miserable when I had to do math.

And if you think I am at all exaggerating, talk to my poor mother who had to deal with me. Once she called my dad home from work to help gather me up. It was sooo bad.

Where am I going with this? Well, nestled in between those ridiculously hard equations, I found these:


There are more, but I am a terrible artist, so these make the point. Even way back then, weddings were on my mind. Sometimes I forget how long I have been wanting to do this job I do. Sometimes I forget that I did have to plug through math - with blood, sweat and tears.
It's really easy for me to forget that I am doing my dream job, and that years ago I would tell myself "Someday math will be over. Someday this will be finished. And maybe you will get to do weddings!"

It's amazing to me! How did this happen?? Am I too young to be reminiscing about the ol' days? Because I am.
I am in awe of the fact that I really, really get to be a wedding photographer, who rarely has to do math. I get to travel, I get to meet new people! I get to edit, and go on shoots! I get to be with brides! Hellooo!!! Brides!

I can't believe it.

And shame on me for not being more grateful. It truly is the kindness of the Lord. Business and work, and thoroughly enjoying it, is such a gift!

He knows the desires of my heart, He knows the plans He has for me, He has given me specific weaknesses and strengths. He knows me inside and out. And He is so good.

How can I praise Him enough?

"Where were you when I laid the foundation of the earth?
Who laid it's cornerstone, when the morning stars sang together
and all the sons of God shouted for joy?...
Who shut in the sea with doors and said
'This is how far you shall come, and no further'...
Can you send for lightning that it may come to you and say
'Here we are'...
Can you adorn yourself with majesty and dignity;
clothe yourself with glory and splendor?..."
The response:
"I know that You can do all things,
no plan of yours can be thwarted.
Therefore I have uttered things that I do not understand,
things too wonderful for me."

{job: parts of 38-42}


It is too wonderful for me - that that God specifically cares for and loves His children is beyond me.

Math is also beyond me, so I guess I am a simple girl. But that's ok, because my God is a great God!

....

28.10.08

Adam and Pami

"I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you"
-- lifehouse


It was an unforgettable weekend. Perfect, 80 degree weather. Wonderful food. Brilliant music! Much laughter and pure joy. Tears of elation, as well as tears of "I'm going to miss you."

Pami of Juarez married Adam of Maryland. And their story is so emotional - the long-distance relationship, the idea of leaving all she's ever known and moving to Maryland, falling hard for each other, saying good-bye to her home and literally moving on in life with her husband. It was a whirlwind! But wedding day was just outstanding. It was such a celebration, truly declaring "Look, come and see what God has done!"


Pami and her 13-year-old sister, Lynda, are very close. Surprisingly close in this day and age. Lynda adores Pami. They have an incredible bond! Lynda was just enamored as Pami put on her wedding gown, in the bedroom these two have shared for years :D So special!

I just love this picture. Hahah it makes me smile :) Pami was brushing her teeth and I don't know why I find it so awesome!

Another sweet moment in the day was when Pami put her veil on. Oh, the room was silenced and time seemed to evaporate. Wow. You could almost physically feel their emotions.

She is breath-taking, head-turning, room-stopping-inly beautiful!

It was complete FUN to photograph her.

I love the look of this one - it could almost be her great-grandma or something!

Oh boy, so pretty....

This one is one of my all-time favorites!


I love that God decided to make light gorgeous. And girls. It's such a great combination!

This was the amazing light we had as Pami walked into the church. You couldn't handpick better light!

There are more ceremony pictures in the slideshow, but I just adore this one. Can you be any happier?

Oh. Hold on... look at this post-kiss-face :D I guess you can be happier ;D

I love a good, vintage black and white!

Now, the sun had long gone down when it was time for their pictures, so I had to get creative!



Aw :)

They are great, aren't they? Oh so great!

Mmmm, vury vury romantic ;D



Ok, and onto the dance floor! Let me tell you, receptions in Mexico are off the hook! Not only is the dancing incredible, everyone knows how to do it - well!

The reception venue was like the garden of a palace in Spain. It was jaw-dropping!

Awww - the daddy/daughter dance!

The mariachi band was fabulous!!!!

First Adam and Pami were spectators....

.... but then they had to get up and dance :)


Here is the show! Congratulations Adam and Pami! Have an amazing honeymoon!!!
And special thanks to Ana for shooting with me! Love you ;D
ps. I had to include this shot from the rehearsal dinner, where they taught all the "gringo's" how to salsa. It was soooo funny! And I even got to learn!

23.10.08

Mexico!

So, I think I am thrilled about where I am right now :D It's sunny and warm :DImage Hosted by ImageShack.us
I am here in Mexico for Adam and Pami's wedding... I'll be back home next week. Right now I am sipping lemonade, answering emails, listening to some lovely live guitar and enjoying a nice breze, bright blue sky and SUNshine!
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I will definitely be posting teasers... it's going to be so beautiful :D
Ope, we are off to the rehearsal now! Wish my sleepy self luck!



21.10.08

Josh and Colleen!

"Yeah, and my head starts spinning
Every time that you are near me
Oh, I love you like I never
...like I never loved before"
-- alan jackson

Josh and Colleen, oh boy how I have been looking forward to your wedding! October 18th couldn't have come fast enough! Blog viewers might remember them from their awesome-bomb engagement shoot, or may have seen them on my website.

There was definitely a "click" with these two when we first met. Maybe it's because the first thing we did was eat lunch - I'm all about food. Or maybe because they loved country music - especially the song "Sweet Home Alabama." Or maybe the it how hard he made her laugh. Or maybe their devoted hearts for their Savior. Probably a healthy mix of all of that. But, let's get to wedding day...

Look who put her big girl shoes on and tried some ring shots!

Colleen is seriously the cutest little thing on earth!


On a more serious note, Colleen's father died about 2 years ago, and I think any big event is bittersweet when someone you love isn't there with you. Colleen's father would have been so proud of her! And, Josh, her dad would have adored you -- thank you for loving his daughter so amazingly! Colleen's bouquet was wrapped in three of his old (clean) handkerchiefs. It was very sweet :D

Happily, Colleen is the youngest of five, boasting four older brothers. Her brothers were amazing all day. They ran errands, carried things, put on jewelry and more. They are awesome guys who seriously, seriously love their little sister.

Uh-oh... watch out Josh.... ;D

Okee. Time for some pictures of the ladies!

Aren't the colors great? The flowers came from Wegman's - the morning of the wedding. Did I mention I love Colleen?

Everything was out in the country. Holy smokes, it was gorgeous!



Hi beautiful!


Isn't she gorgeous?

Not the best picture of all time, but Colleen was rocking out to country music, with her little polka dot flip-flops on the way to the ceremony. I love Colleen :D

I snuck upstairs to check out the sanctuary, and when I cam back down, I walked into this scene. Props for their creativity!

This is Colleen right here: beautiful and joyful. That's her.

Alright. This is where things start to get emotional. All the girls were waiting in the stairwell. The music started to play, all the guests were seated and we were moments away from starting.

Colleen was standing by herself at the bottom of the stairs. As excited, happy, in-love, emotional, antsy and thrilled as could be. My eyes welled up with tears, I was SO happy for her.

By the time she was leaving the stairwell, she had me falling apart. Tears were streaming down my face. Streaming. Josh makes her so happy and she loves him so much. I was blown away!

I had to get out of there cause I could see through my viewfinder anymore. I had to get away from her, or I was going to keep crying!

Ha. Well, the front of the aisle wasn't much better. Josh was biting his lips, hardly breathing - I think I could hear his heart pounding - and everyone could see the tears of joy in his eyes :D

Here comes his bride! His beautiful, beautiful bride!

aw :D I can't stand it!


The ceremony was filled with much laughter and joy, of course.

A little look for her man....

And wa-la! They are married! I loved this "almost kiss."

Yayyayayaa!

Congratulations Mr. and Mrs. Miller!

Moving right along... here is Josh being a goof....

The lovely bridal party

Cute little Colleen...

... with all the boys. This was seriously so funny. Laughter was ringing! I loved it!

Magazine cover, please? Sheesh!




mmmmmmMUAh!

I like them :D


And one last one, cause I just can't blog anymore!

Enjoy the slideshow - and Josh & Colleen... Enjoy Florida!!! Stay in the sun an extra 10 minutes for me! I'm so jealous!